“If you do not bring forth the genius within you, it will destroy you. If you do bring forth the genius within you, it will free you.” ËœJesus Christ, the Gnostic Gospel of Thomas
If this were a FaceBook post, I would “Like” this. It’s one of those things that is so true that it makes you feel both hopeful and hopeless at the same time. Hopeful because, quite often, I can do and think and say things that make me feel genius and I’m in that zone I call, Wow, and it’s a place and time that I like a lot.
But reading this makes me feel Hopeless, too, because of the other times where I feel like Timmy trapped in a deep dark well. I don’t know why that image just came to me, except that I used to care for two really gallant and smart and tall Collies who lived with me and we walked around my neighborhood each day and invariably, someone would drive by, roll down the window and yell something about Timmy, a well, and Lassie. It always made me feel like I had just been rescued from a deep, dark place.
Then there is the whole idea of what and how genius trapped inside of you destroys you and just what part of you becomes destroyed and how when the destroying begins, it’s usually so slow and quiet that you don’t catch on until your body begins to either nag at you with something physically painful, or you one day notice that there is no ground under your feet, but you are walking on air, which is usually meant as a metaphor for being extremely happy, but that is just a trick because if you don’t have your feel on the ground, you are addicted to something unworldly that has mostly to do with your ego and that is just a whole bag of trouble waiting to happen.
Getting back to the hopeful part, because after all, intention is everything I like to say to my yoga students (I know, I don’t really sound like a typical yoga teacher, but really I kinda am good at all of it because I really understand what it’s like in the well and that maybe the well is necessary in some way). The hopeful part is that digging into the genius inside of you does really make you free. In yoga terms, it would be called being “liberated” from those things that drag you down, like fear, anger, doubt, etc.. I don’t know if you can be human and not have these things lurking inside, but, when you are “bringing forth” your genius, I think it keeps your mind off of it.